TONIGHTS THOUGHTS ….

As I’m learning, the more I stop talking, become aware, and simply observe, the more I’m starting to see the people in my circle that I’m becoming out of alignment with.
I’ve noticed that when I talk to some of my friends on the phone, I’m usually the one doing most of the talking just to keep the conversation going. But when I get quiet and simply observe, the conversations don’t really go anywhere. I’m starting to realize that what some of my friends are still interested in, I’m no longer interested in. I don’t care about celebrity drama all the time, or conversations about how this person is ugly or that person is dumb. Those conversations no longer feed me.
For a long time, I believed that loyalty meant staying around forever, no matter what, simply because of history. I’m no longer choosing to believe that. If I’m not receiving, in some healthy way, what I’m consistently giving, then I’ve been tolerating a lot of one-sided relationships in my life.
I’m also beginning to understand how judgmental people can be. Many people are incredibly aware of everyone else’s flaws while lacking awareness of their own. I’ve learned that I can’t continue seeking advice from the same people I’ve known for years if we’re no longer on the same page about life. You have to be mindful of who you take advice from and who you choose to share your vulnerability with.
I’m realizing that I attracted many of the people in my life when I was younger because we had a lot in common. But I’m no longer choosing to live in that same reality.
Today, I choose therapy.
I choose self-reflection.
I choose accountability.
I choose healing.
I’m not saying I need all of my friends to already be healed. I’m saying I need the people closest to me to at least be committed to their own healing journey. To me, therapy is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself.
I’m also understanding the importance of setting boundaries with the people closest to me in order to protect my energy and my peace. Everyone has struggles, but the question is: how many people are truly willing to work on them? It all starts from within.
I’ve been in therapy for over four and a half years, and it has been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made—not just for myself, but for my relationships as well.
I’m no longer ignoring what’s right in front of me or making excuses for people. I’m done performing just to keep people around. I don’t want people in my life who only want me when I’m performing.
I’m choosing to show up unapologetically as my true self.
Love me for who I am—or don’t love me at all.
I’m no longer living for the approval of others. I’m finally choosing to live for myself.